Nine Possible Swords

1) Possible: 9 of Swords. So, it is possible that today is really going to suck, what with the being so caught up in my own head that I hate everything. Here's hoping I can avoid that shit. It's not like I am even working or anything! And it's not like a day of idleness could in any way lead to me overthinking my life and ending up in a shitty headspace. Oh, wait.

2) Important: 10 of Wands. This is either a warning to not push too hard or a warning to not let myself be pushed at.

3) Courageous: Prince of Swords. Yesterday this was in spot #4. Not sure I get it. Meditation, maybe.

4) Futile: Knight of Cups. No intuitive fluff for me today. No inspiration.

5) Necessary: 6 of Disks. I have some work to do, apparently. I am not sure what this is. I am not working today. Anything I'd really like to be doing outside of that would be all Knight of Cups-y. Maybe laundry?

6) Joyful: 5 of Disks. This is not joyful! This card sucks and needs to stop following me around.

7) Funny: XV - The Devil. Really? Funny? Maybe to someone else. I'd really like to know who's been laughing at all of these.

8) Helpful: VII - The Chariot. Focus on the destination. Actually do things that bring me closer to the destination. Focus less on whatever terrible shit is going to happen today than on where I am heading.

I did a bit of pretty serious magick/visionary work last night, that I thought was pretty awesome and productive. Looking at this, I am wondering if maybe I just fucked it all up.

Nothing like drawing the 9 of Swords to make you immediately start feeling 9 of Swords-ish.

Friday: The Possibility of Kicking Ass and/or Being Destroyed in the Burning Tower

1) Possible: Queen of Wands. HELL YES. Also, this is Crowley issuing a challenge: remember that you do actually have some power, yeah?

2) Important: 9 of Wands. Again with the power. Today is a day for kicking ass, apparently. Noted.

3) Courageous: Ace of Swords. Again with you, Ace! Decisions, decisions. I think this is about school. Maybe I should, you know, actually deal with it.

4) Futile: Prince of Swords.  All these ideas and nowhere to go, no commitment. Yes, incredibly futile. This is a comment on all of those "maybe, yeah, sure, whatever" things I've got floating around. Mr. Prince is not in control of his own mind, and therefore can't get anything done.

5) Necessary: The Tower. Ummm... yeah, I guess. I don't like it, but I will keep my eyes open for radical change potential today.

6) Joyful: 7 of Swords. Normally I would make some crack about how useless this information is, but I totally get it right now! I am sufficiently caffeinated for the first time in a week and my brain is actually working and I GET IT. Some things are not under my power. Some things are not in my control. The "joyful" part of that is leaving those things alone, and focusing on the things I actually can deal with.

7) Funny: 7 of Cups. I am starting to wonder if "funny" in this reading means "strange" instead of "humorous." There is some strange 7 of Cups business about right now. Weird emotional detritus floating to the surface that I don't really want to deal with. AT ALL. Or maybe I am supposed to find humor in the situation, which I am having a hard time doing.

8) Helpful: Knight of Disks. Yeah, yeah, whatever. I hate Disks.

So - today = action and control and power and decisions! And that nasty emotional drama? Laugh at it! This is, perhaps, the most coherent and helpful this spread has been so far.

Also, watch out for Towers.

when one card isn't enough

Over the weekend I picked up a copy of Complete Book of Tarot Spreads. What I really want is Barbara Moore's Tarot Spreads, but so far that one hasn't turned up for $4 at the used bookstore.

I used to be skeptical of these kinds of books. I mean, once you've seen enough spreads you can just make up your own, right? Are there really going to be any ideas in here that I couldn't have thought up on the fly?

The answer: sometimes, yes. Also, I was feeling like I needed a kick in the something. New idea, new inspiration, whatever.

Right now I am digging this 8-card spread out of the Complete Book called "Facing the Gap." I've actually started using it for daily readings, which might seem like a bit of overkill, but I've felt like I need a little more information, more nuance, than just one card can give. Also, if I'm going to be honest, my brain is a chaotic disaster mess right now. Astrology says what?

(Plus I'd been pulling Lust like almost every day and using it as an excuse to eat lots of ice cream. Which is not exactly the best strategy for me not being in a sugar coma.)

Without further rambling intro: the new spread, and today's cards.

monthly forecast time! (part 2)

Continued from here.

Arguably, life gets a little more interesting in houses 7-12. That might just be my generalized bias towards life. I think that 7-12 are where we find most of the good shit.

7) Partnership: XV - The Devil

My current approach, when I think a card could be about any of eighteen things in my life, is just to assume it's about all of them. (The major question for this house is who? More on that later.) And for all of my drama with The Devil, I think I am getting a bit more comfortable with the kinds of things he means, for me at least.