Wednesday is FML

1) Possible: 5 of Swords - Defeat

Seriously?! I am so tired of you, 5 of Swords. It's not like I am sitting about doing nothing at all. I don't know WTF you want from me.

Nothing like the universe saying, "Well, you're pretty much a complete failure, so..." to get your morning started. FUCK YOU SWORDS.

2) Important: Prince of Cups

I don't feel like being conniving and merciless today. Conjuring the energy to do that is going to take some work.

3) Courageous: 8 of Cups - Indolence

Two options: 1) Give up now. Really. It's your best bet. 2) Actually deal with some lingering emotional drama, i.e., actually go to this meeting this morning re: getting back into school. The entire school question is a giant 8 of Cups.

4) Futile: V - The Hierophant

Now I lean towards the "give up" interpretation of position number 3, because this cards here says that interactions with authority will be fruitless. Translation: meeting with the registrar will be a waste of my time.

5) Necessary: Princess of Disks

Intuition says: perseverance. But this reading has already told me to give up three times. MAKE UP YOUR MIND, cards.

6) Joyful: III - The Empress

Why you gotta give me the Princess of Disks and the Empress in the same reading?  Really?

7) Funny: Ace of Swords

I finally make the decision to make the school thing happen and it turns out to be completely impossible? That is funny. Or not.

8) Helpful: Prince of Wands

Being an asshole. Got it.

Today sucks

what's up supermoon? (OMG I HATE SWORDS)

I have learned that blogging this as I do the spread is the most likely way to ensure that I actually interpret the reading, instead of just writing it down on a sheet of notebook paper and keeping it folded up in my wallet promising to do it tomorrow, for a whole month.

ahem.

supermoon, kids! and wow is this month ever filled with crazy times. let's do this dance.

*NOTE: I hate this reading. This reading pissed me off, a lot. I am posting this as is because otherwise I will never post it, and never look at this spread again. It's really rough and whiny and terrible.*

NYNY: Goals

My dearest darlings, I simply love goals. The hope and anticipation and planning and spreadsheets and shopping! (For what is a plan, without shopping?)

Follow through is another story.

I have to fight the nasties that tell me that this is just like every other time that I set out to accomplish something and failed.  I have to remind myself of one of my Very Important Things I've Learned Lately:

Most people don't accomplish half of the shit they talk about doing. Most of the plans we plan and schemes we scheme come to nothing at all. This is natural, normal, human bullshit. Sometimes life gets in the way and fucks us up and sometimes we just get so caught up in the fun of listening to ourselves talk about all the Somedays and Somehows that we don't even think about the reality of our situations.


However, part one: some of the things we plan and scheme do come to pass.


However, part two: all of those talks of Somedays and Somehows are a lot of fun, on their own merit, especially when accompanied by good company and at-least-decent wine.

Something to remember, as I embark upon this.