Nine Possible Swords

1) Possible: 9 of Swords. So, it is possible that today is really going to suck, what with the being so caught up in my own head that I hate everything. Here's hoping I can avoid that shit. It's not like I am even working or anything! And it's not like a day of idleness could in any way lead to me overthinking my life and ending up in a shitty headspace. Oh, wait.

2) Important: 10 of Wands. This is either a warning to not push too hard or a warning to not let myself be pushed at.

3) Courageous: Prince of Swords. Yesterday this was in spot #4. Not sure I get it. Meditation, maybe.

4) Futile: Knight of Cups. No intuitive fluff for me today. No inspiration.

5) Necessary: 6 of Disks. I have some work to do, apparently. I am not sure what this is. I am not working today. Anything I'd really like to be doing outside of that would be all Knight of Cups-y. Maybe laundry?

6) Joyful: 5 of Disks. This is not joyful! This card sucks and needs to stop following me around.

7) Funny: XV - The Devil. Really? Funny? Maybe to someone else. I'd really like to know who's been laughing at all of these.

8) Helpful: VII - The Chariot. Focus on the destination. Actually do things that bring me closer to the destination. Focus less on whatever terrible shit is going to happen today than on where I am heading.

I did a bit of pretty serious magick/visionary work last night, that I thought was pretty awesome and productive. Looking at this, I am wondering if maybe I just fucked it all up.

Nothing like drawing the 9 of Swords to make you immediately start feeling 9 of Swords-ish.

monthly forecast time! (part 2)

Continued from here.

Arguably, life gets a little more interesting in houses 7-12. That might just be my generalized bias towards life. I think that 7-12 are where we find most of the good shit.

7) Partnership: XV - The Devil

My current approach, when I think a card could be about any of eighteen things in my life, is just to assume it's about all of them. (The major question for this house is who? More on that later.) And for all of my drama with The Devil, I think I am getting a bit more comfortable with the kinds of things he means, for me at least.

NYNY: Goals

My dearest darlings, I simply love goals. The hope and anticipation and planning and spreadsheets and shopping! (For what is a plan, without shopping?)

Follow through is another story.

I have to fight the nasties that tell me that this is just like every other time that I set out to accomplish something and failed.  I have to remind myself of one of my Very Important Things I've Learned Lately:

Most people don't accomplish half of the shit they talk about doing. Most of the plans we plan and schemes we scheme come to nothing at all. This is natural, normal, human bullshit. Sometimes life gets in the way and fucks us up and sometimes we just get so caught up in the fun of listening to ourselves talk about all the Somedays and Somehows that we don't even think about the reality of our situations.


However, part one: some of the things we plan and scheme do come to pass.


However, part two: all of those talks of Somedays and Somehows are a lot of fun, on their own merit, especially when accompanied by good company and at-least-decent wine.

Something to remember, as I embark upon this.